Thursday, 18 October 2007

• Feeling

  I really wonder why feeling can affect us? Some affect us to some extent, some affect us soooo much that we can't do anything else......
  
  I really miss a few people atm~~ My mom, my dad, my brothers, my cousins, and also my BF. Blame on the hormone issue, coz I know at this particular of period I'm more labile in term of emotions. I'm emotional at this period. Yeah~~~ thanks to the hormones.
  
  I do miss my parents sooo much. They would always in my heart, and would always be the first priority in my life. I do feel grateful for them, for everything they have given to me. Everything. I would trade anything that I can offer for their happiness.... I love you Mom and Dad! [Sometimes I do wish I can say it out loud, but it always ends up at the tips of my tongue!]
  
  My brothers~~ even though we don't have the 'ideal' relationship of bro-sista, I always have my heart for you both. Honestly, I don't really know you both inside out, and sometimes I just don't know how to communicate with you, but despite all of those, I love you.
  
  My cousin Nana~~ We used to live together. Laughed and cried together~~ Shared stories.... You sometimes nagged at us... All the memories~~ they're all sweet. I miss your laughters sometimes, especially I'm still living in the same building (only diff unit now)!
  
  My BF~~ This is tricky... We both live in Sydney, but ironically can't meet or see each other that often. I don't blame on anything. It's just the conditions: my time and his, the distance between my place and his, etc.
  Sometimes, I wonder, why do we feel that way? What makes the feeling come? I don't ask them to come to me, but they do! Annoying, ey! hahhahahah
  
  But now I realise, I can not to be conned by feelings. I can be free from them. I allow them to come and not be affected (for long) at the same time. I indeed feel free!!!!!!!!! What a nice feeling afterall!
  
  
  

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