"Life is uncertain, but Death is" (Buddha)

Well~~ death is the shadow of life. Wherever life is, death always follows. We all know that we WILL die eventually. But how many of us really appreciate life? How many of us put our priority on materials than relationships with other fellow humans? How many of us pursue 'happiness' by making others unhappy? If we understand that death can come anytime it likes, we would prepare ourself for it, wouldn't we? We would appreciate whatever surrounds us. We will look at the world with different specs. We would have a more loving priority in our life.

Death~~ Now and then, I'll remind myself that it can come to me anytime! I'd remind myself every morning I wake up that I may die on that day. Therefore, I think it's better off for me to cultivate more loving-kindness to myself and others. And this reminder also motivates me to practise Buddhism more diligently. In Buddhism, the state of mind at death is very crucial for the next rebirth. Peaceful, not disturbed, mind is favorable. Since I'm not a perfect person, now and then, I keep making mistakes. But I try to make less mistakes.

Having said this, I'd like to have a peaceful conditions and environment when I die. I'd like people take my death as a celebration - celebration because I was born in this life and have given them love- instead of grief. I'd like them to rejoice with me. That is why I strive to be less imperfect, to be more loving, to be more truthful - to myself and others.

So friends, let go of the grudges, since life is more precious than other matters!

Metta,

Rosie

I really wonder why feeling can affect us? Some affect us to some extent, some affect us soooo much that we can't do anything else......

I really miss a few people atm~~ My mom, my dad, my brothers, my cousins, and also my BF. Blame on the hormone issue, coz I know at this particular of period I'm more labile in term of emotions. I'm emotional at this period. Yeah~~~ thanks to the hormones.

I do miss my parents sooo much. They would always in my heart, and would always be the first priority in my life. I do feel grateful for them, for everything they have given to me. Everything. I would trade anything that I can offer for their happiness.... I love you Mom and Dad! [Sometimes I do wish I can say it out loud, but it always ends up at the tips of my tongue!]

My brothers~~ even though we don't have the 'ideal' relationship of bro-sista, I always have my heart for you both. Honestly, I don't really know you both inside out, and sometimes I just don't know how to communicate with you, but despite all of those, I love you.

My cousin Nana~~ We used to live together. Laughed and cried together~~ Shared stories.... You sometimes nagged at us... All the memories~~ they're all sweet. I miss your laughters sometimes, especially I'm still living in the same building (only diff unit now)!

My BF~~ This is tricky... We both live in Sydney, but ironically can't meet or see each other that often. I don't blame on anything. It's just the conditions: my time and his, the distance between my place and his, etc.
Sometimes, I wonder, why do we feel that way? What makes the feeling come? I don't ask them to come to me, but they do! Annoying, ey! hahhahahah

But now I realise, I can not to be conned by feelings. I can be free from them. I allow them to come and not be affected (for long) at the same time. I indeed feel free!!!!!!!!! What a nice feeling afterall!